i find myself reading blog posts, skimming past the parts about Jesus without even thinking about it.
Jesus. Jesus who actually matters.
Jesus. Jesus who changed and changes everything.
Jesus. Jesus who is everything.
Friday at youth, our theme was Pause. Play. Repeat. Amidst the reflection of the past lessons we’ve covered during the year, Ramona went over Matthew 5:4-8, pinpointing people whom she saw the verses majorly representing. That was a push I needed, direct application of scripture.
4 God blesses those who mourn,
for they will be comforted.
5 God blesses those who are humble,
for they will inherit the whole earth.
6 God blesses those who hunger and thirst for justice,
for they will be satisfied.
7 God blesses those who are merciful,
for they will be shown mercy.
8 God blesses those whose hearts are pure,
for they will see God.
And these things, certain people are evident in all of them. And these things are things that we should strive to have evident in all of us.
I was shocked, though, because I was the first example. The Message translation puts it this way, and I feel connection in this:
4 “You’re blessed when you feel you’ve lost what is most dear to you. Only then can you be embraced by the One most dear to you.
Ramona phrased it as that I “mourn” with people–work through struggles and tough stuff with them. I see the second translation, though, linking my past with my future once again. Having identity in nothing was previously “dear” to me. It’s true. Being stronger alone was who I was. God took that from me, forever. And I was embraced fully by His LOVE.
Moments of blessing appear so often. I am blessed that people allow me to intertwine into their stories, engage in their stories. I am blessed every single time I engage in worship with one of the girls I do inclusion with. I am blessed every time my other girlie looks at me and holds onto my arm and says “I love you” because that is exactly what’s on her heart at the time.
I do a lot of playing and repeating. I need to do more pausing.
Pausing like this.
Pausing with Jesus.