—Spending Time, Stellar Kart
So often I talk so much and never listen. I talk so much and never actually open up, never actually say anything—not even to my Maker.
I feel like I’m too busy. I don’t see my friends outside of school, I don’t write and do non-school things as much as I’d like to. I haven’t played my guitar in months. I have this pattern of school-homework-work-workouts-church stuff.
And I feel like that has to change. I feel like everything is speaking to me that my relationship with God needs to be what I’m working on—and I don’t know how I let that slip away. Yet I’m too distracted, too scattered, too whatever, to be able to focus on that. Because all this preoccupation does not even just get my time but also my brain-time—school especially. There are parts of my life that I need to pour into more—my girls at church, school, Jesus—and stuff that is just hanging there, waiting for me to deal with it.
So what gives? I’m still trying to figure that out.